Baywatch star Jeremy Jackson opens up about troubled ex-wife Loni Willison and her downward spiral into life on the streets

When photos of once-glamorous Loni Willison emerged showing her surviving connected nan streets and dumpster diving successful 2018, nary 1 was much shocked than her ex-husband – Baywatch prima Jeremy Jackson.

At that point, Jackson had not seen her for 4 years, having steered clear since an explosive argument culminating successful a 911 telephone that put nan last nail into nan coffin of their two-year marriage.

‘Losing her was for illustration nan decease of somebody, and I tried to bring her backmost and I couldn't, said Jackson, opening up for nan first clip astir nan events that led to nan extremity of his marriage, successful an exclusive question and reply pinch DailyMail.com . 

'The female I was successful emotion pinch is gone, and whoever she is mentally now is not who I knew.'

Jackson, 44, said it took him 2 years to get complete his condolences astatine nan nonaccomplishment of ‘the emotion of my life’ who he had desperately tried to thief arsenic she spiraled into intelligence unwellness and addiction.

He paints a bleak image of their last twelvemonth together which, arsenic he tells it, saw her go progressively paranoid, suffering worry attacks and hallucinations which near her convinced that he was nan enemy.

Their last confrontation went viral aft she released a signaling of it successful 2015 and marked nan commencement of a play successful which he deed stone bottom: sunk successful a depression complete nan extremity of his marriage, enduring torrents of maltreatment online and still battling his ain drug and alcohol demons.  

Now cleanable and moving arsenic a fittingness coach and sober mentor for different recovering addicts, Jackson told really he spent thousands connected various medicine and took Loni to therapy sessions – moreover regularly attending religion pinch her successful a bid to thief her heal.

But it was each to nary avail. Jackson said: ‘I mislaid nan emotion of my life. I mislaid nan only female I've ever projected to, nan only female I've ever wanted to marry.

‘I'm 44-years-old. I still person not projected aliases wanted to wed anyone else. 

'She was my choice, nan only prime I ever made, and I mislaid it.' 

Despite his efforts to thief her, Jackson claims she had tried to technologist a ‘hostile takeover’ of his finances, swindling thousands of dollars and having his car put successful her sanction earlier he realized.

She besides began secretly signaling him – including nan infamous portion of nan 2014 bust up which ended pinch her calling nan cops and accusing him of attempted murder.

Jackson said: ‘She group maine up and started screaming that I was hurting her erstwhile I did thing to her.

‘There are nary infirmary records. There are nary expert bills. There are nary X-rays location are nary pictures. She attacked maine while recording, screaming, ‘you're hurting me’.’

That was nan past clip he saw her. ‘I person not seen her since that day,’ he told DailyMail.com. ‘I went done nan biggest slump of my life for 2 years after.

‘For 2 years I was successful and retired of rehabs, crying, doing condolences and nonaccomplishment counseling, penning goodbye letters to her, doing heavy therapeutic psychiatric activity because I mislaid nan emotion of my life.’ 

Jackson, who starred arsenic David Hasselhoff’s boy successful nan 90’s blockbuster show, is nary alien to nan ravages of intelligence unwellness and addiction, which successful his case, included a crystal meth wont that took clasp earlier he was moreover aged capable to bargain a brew successful a bar.

‘I had nan astir overprotective mother connected nan look of nan planet,’ he said of his azygous mom Jolana Dunn.

‘She loves maine beyond words. She sent backstage investigators aft me, she called nan cops connected me. She would salary friends to effort to bent retired pinch me, to support an oculus connected me.

‘She tried hard. But erstwhile somebody's mind is made up that they want to do that, that they want to party, that they want to do drugs, that they want to get high, there's thing you could do.’

By nan clip he near Baywatch successful 1999 aged conscionable 18, he was a full-blown meth addict who had already been successful and retired of rehab 4 times.

The pursuing year, he was arrested by undercover cops pinch 2 duffel bags containing items utilized to navigator crystal meth and recovered himself jailed for 90 days and past backmost successful rehab for his 5th stint.

It was into this mix, 2 years later, came Loni Willison, past aged 19. At nan time, she was moving arsenic a porn prima and a stripper according to her erstwhile husband.

‘I met Loni erstwhile I was 21. She was 19,’ Jackson said. ‘Loni was a porn star, a 19-year-old woman being utilized for money connected video.'

‘I was successful emotion pinch her for her spirit, that magic energy, that typical thing, that psyche connection.

‘I saw that successful her and it collapsed my bosom that she was surviving successful nan world of porn. But I was only 21.

‘I was a young kid. I was sober, and she drank each nan time. I wanted to thief her, and my bosom collapsed for her.’

The smitten brace went connected to day for 4 years but nan narration foundered complete her refusal to springiness up her porn career.

Jackson says Loni, who was raised successful Hemet, California, past moved to Las Vegas, wherever she continued successful porn and stripping.

‘I mislaid touch pinch her,’ Jackson said. ‘My life sewage better. Her life sewage worse. But she put herself backmost together.’

After 4 years apart, nan brace reconnected aft she discontinue porn, sewage sober and went backmost to schoolhouse – while ‘only stripping connected nan weekends’.

The now 41-year-old besides opened up to him astir her past, which included a succession of convulsive drug-addicted boyfriends, including 1 that had forced her into her early porn work.

He said: ‘That collapsed my heart. I wanted to beryllium nan quality for her. I didn't support nan porn. I didn't support nan stripping. I didn't deliberation that was sexy aliases cool.

‘I felt for illustration that was destructive to her spirit. But I didn't unit her aliases show her she had to stop. She's sewage to make her ain choices. We each do.’

Jackson added: ‘I was doing really good successful my life astatine nan time, and I thought, I've made unspeakable decisions successful my past.

‘I've been dirty. I've done crime, I've done drugs. I've lied. I've cheated, I've stolen. That's each she did. Just lying to herself, cheating, stealing, conscionable dirty, doing drugs, ashamed of herself, debased self-esteem. Parents didn't emotion her enough. Boyfriends hit her up.

‘I wanted to heal this woman. I loved her.’

The 2 began making love again and yet joined successful 2012. Jackson, who had go able disconnected nan backmost of his acting career, paid disconnected her student debts and went connected to lavish her pinch money and help.

That included putting her connected a repast plan, paying for laser curen to region scars connected her look and dental activity to switch teeth damaged by drugs.

He besides helped her to go a certified esthetician and utilized his Hollywood contacts to get her activity arsenic a fittingness model.

‘All of these interviews wherever they opportunity she was a model, that's not what she was,’ Jackson explained.

‘I sewage her into magazines. I sewage her into fitness. She didn't do that earlier me. I helped her modulation from porn and stripping to being a master exemplary and a fittingness competitor. I helped her.’

But while Jackson was capable to thief steer her distant from narcotics and porn, he wasn’t adjacent to dealing pinch her deteriorating intelligence health, which successful nan last twelvemonth of their matrimony included worsening panic attacks, hallucinations and breakdowns.

He told DailyMail.com: ‘She was proceeding things. She was seeing things, and she was accusing maine of things that were wholly delusional. She would person monolithic breakdowns, panic attacks.

‘She would travel location from work, crying, frightened she was going to stab personification astatine nan doctor's office.’

Jackson says he tried everything he could deliberation of to thief her, including taking her to therapy sessions, going to religion together and spending thousands of dollars connected medications he hoped would help.

Unknown to him, however, he claims Loni was stealing from him. ‘She secretly took my sanction disconnected nan cars because we were married,’ he said.

‘She changed my billing reside pinch nan IRS and was trying to get loans and taxation returns to a different reside alternatively of mine.

‘She was trying a dispute takeover of my finances without maine knowing.

When matters came to a caput complete his arrest, which was initially connected attempted execution charges but ended pinch him accepting a caution, Jackson says he blamed himself for what had happened – sparking an extended play successful therapy.

He had nary thought what had go of Loni but pictured her having a bully life only for that to crumble erstwhile photos emerged successful 2018 showing her surviving rough.

‘When I saw nan pictures online was nan first clip I realized what had happened,’ he told DailyMail.com.

‘I was sad because I pictured her retired location happy, happy pinch nan car she stole from maine and nan money she stole from me, surviving her champion life.

‘Then I saw her and I said, ‘oh my God’. I had wanted her and maine to person a fairytale outcome. I couldn't let myself to spot that she was really insane.’

Loni, who is still bum and surviving successful Venice Beach, has many times declined offers of thief and shelter, astir precocious successful an brushwood pinch photographers a week ago.

Friends person besides tried to thief while Jackson told DailyMail.com he would thief her successful a flash if she ever asked for it.

‘My institution InnerG Wellness has alliances pinch nan champion sober companions, nan champion psychiatrists, nan champion retreats, women's support, battered women's shelters, you sanction it,’ he said.

‘My Rolodex, my entree is astatine her disposal. My only attraction successful life, my only ngo successful life is to person nan answers for group erstwhile they're ready.’

Along pinch his institution and different task of his called Balanced Man which offers residential wellbeing retreats, Jackson is presently starring connected Hulu deed After Baywatch: Moment successful nan Sun alongside his on-screen dada Hasselhoff.

He has, he told DailyMail.com, nary existent desire to return to acting unless a spectacular portion came up – and 1 that doesn’t conflict pinch his passion for mentoring erstwhile addicts for illustration himself.

But contempt nan ups and downs and nan tragic fallout from his matrimony to Loni, Jackson says it was worthy it to go nan man he is today.

‘Whatever it took to get here, I wouldn't alteration it,’ he said. ‘If it would alteration what I americium and what I do and what I person now, I wouldn't spell backmost and alteration anything.’