This Is Us star Chrissy Metz, 44, details the horrible 'mental, physical, emotional abuse' she suffered as a child

Chrissy Metz stated that her stepfather, Crayton Hodge, would 'threaten to fastener nan cupboards' arsenic she opened up astir experiencing 'painful' kid abuse. 

The This Is Us star, 44 - who previously elaborate her upbringing successful her 2018 memoir This Is Me: Loving The Person You Are Today - besides talked astir really her weight impacted nan curen she received complete nan years, per People. 

During Tuesday's section of nan Jamie Kern Lima podcast, Metz expressed that her stepfather 'threaten to fastener nan cupboards, and I'm like, "I don't deliberation you get it."

'I deliberation there's truthful overmuch much consciousness now astir food, nutrient issues, nutrient behavior... we amended people, nan fearfulness goes away. And possibly he was conscionable fearful. I don't really know.' 

Chrissy past revealed, 'But yeah, I mean, [it was] decidedly mental, physical, affectional maltreatment for sure.' 

The character further discussed nan effect Hodge's actions had connected her, adding, 'the affectional stuff...they're for illustration small nicks, small cuts, and yet you bleed out. It is painful.'

'Why does my weight equate my worthiness? And arsenic a 12-year-old kid, it's like, really do you reconcile that successful your mind?' 

Metz besides opened up astir her weight while increasing up, and told nan host, 'You look for illustration nary of your different friends and you can't fresh into immoderate of nan tiny Wet Seal apparel that they tin fresh into. You're like, "Oh, fto maine get your necklace."'

'Also each nan boys liked my friends - and I ever felt for illustration I was mounting my friends up pinch tiny boys.' 

Chrissy said that she is 'trying to heal those wounds slow but surely. And it's not easy...The guidelines of it is, "I'm unworthy."' 

'There's truthful overmuch stigma astir weight, and location still is for a myriad of reasons, but I deliberation there's this thought that like, "Oh, you can't put nan nutrient down" aliases "You're lazy."' 

'Beautiful models are connected a pedestal, moreover though they're very unhealthy arsenic well. They're not taking attraction of their bodies. But erstwhile you're overweight, it's for illustration a full different thing. It's truthful bizarre,' nan American Horror Story prima added. 

Metz - who appeared connected The Masked Singer earlier this twelvemonth - past recalled getting onto airplanes and group would 'sigh, aliases wouldn't look astatine maine aliases wouldn't engage.' 

'Before nan show, I could spell connected an airplane and personification could not want to beryllium adjacent to maine if they were excessively squished aliases they were going to beryllium like, "Oh, gosh, present comes a large woman that I person to beryllium adjacent to."' 

However, aft landing a domiciled successful This Is Us, Chrissy said nan measurement group treated her changed. 

'But because now I'm connected a TV show, they don't care. Or they're like, "Oh, well, you're famous."' 

Metz expressed, 'It was ever like, they're going to beryllium bothered that I'm sitting adjacent to them, aliases they wouldn't look astatine maine doubly aliases they would not engage.'

'And past erstwhile I became, let's put it successful aerial quotes, famous, then they want to person a speech aliases they were much apt to want to beryllium adjacent to me.'

The character told Lima, 'It's still thing that my friends and I talk astir because what does it really moreover mean? What could I supply to them aliases what penetration could I stock pinch them? I don't know.'

'Do they consciousness cooler sitting adjacent to personification who's famous? I don't know. I don't understand it,' she said, earlier admitting, 'That benignant of behavior...it makes you not want to spot people.'

From 2016 done 2022, Metz notably portrayed nan domiciled of Kate Pearson successful nan deed NBC series, This Is Us. 

Her capacity earned her Golden Globe nominations for Best Supporting Actress successful a Series, Miniseries aliases Television Film. 

She besides won 2 SAG Awards for Outstanding Performance by an Ensemble successful a Drama Series. 

In nan midst of nan show's run, Chrissy published nan 2018 memoir This Is Me: Loving The Person You Are Today. 

Metz was calved to Denise and Mark Metz successful Homestead, Florida, earlier nan family, including 2 older siblings, Monica and Phillip, moved to Japan erstwhile nan early character was six months aged for a Naval assignment.

She recalled successful her memoir that she ne'er 'bonded' pinch Mark - she doesn't telephone her begetter 'dad' - and that she was hesitant to usage his past sanction erstwhile she made it successful Hollywood.

Chrissy claimed that that nan only clip he gave her a compliment was erstwhile she was 7 years aged during a sportfishing trip.

It was conscionable months later that Mark and Metz's mother's narration fell isolated and nan sailor was caught buying a necklace for different woman. 

'Mark is simply a alien to maine and I had perfectly nary thought really to magically span nan gulf betwixt us,' she wrote.

Mark disputed this type of events, telling DailyMail.com: 'Did I wantonness her? No! I didn't wantonness anybody. If she ne'er contacts me, that's her business.'

Chrissy's mother yet met Crayton Hodge, who would go nan children's stepfather - a man Metz now calls 'Trigger.' 

The character claimed that she suffered years of maltreatment from Hodge and had to beryllium weighed regularly erstwhile she was surviving pinch him.

In an exclusive question and reply pinch DailyMail.com, Hodge said past twelvemonth that he 'never put immoderate unit connected [Metz] to eat otherwise aliases activity out'.

Metz disagrees pinch this successful her memoir, saying: 'Whaaat? I conscionable didn't cognize what do do pinch that [claim]. He thinks that he said I could eat immoderate I wanted, and yet he weighed maine constantly? Wow. Okay.'

The character besides wrote astir a beforehand gait fist conflict she had pinch her sister successful beforehand of nan neighbors connected Christmas Eve and really she utilized to rotation market stores erstwhile she was 8 years aged because she didn't want to beryllium location alone.

Chrissy additionally opened up astir her first matrimony to Martyn Eaden, whom she tied nan knot pinch successful 2008. 

However, nan pair's divorcement was finalized successful 2015 aft he revenge for divorcement 1 twelvemonth earlier, citing 'irreconcilable differences.' 

And past twelvemonth successful October, Metz divided from her boyfriend, Bradley Collins, aft 3 years of dating. 

At nan time, she released a connection to Instagram to uncover nan news, and stated that contempt nan breakup, 'we proceed to emotion each different very much.'